I HAVE A WILD SIDE!! Yes I do.. and i couldnt be more thrilled at the fact that today Chris is taking me to Mt. Baldy.
To me, Mt. Baldy is a place where i can get down right brave and crazy. It's a place where I can explore, admire, and battle against the elements! When im hiking and climbing, struggling to make a path and way... all I know is pure love and true connection with what my God has created. The smell of the air is worth that second deep breath. The beauty of the land is what pulls me to take an extra step up the mountain. I feel so close to Him out there. I can say, "Lord this is beautiful. You are beautiful. And powerful. And loving." And i know its all for me, this is my temporary dwelling that He's created for me while I am here, and I love it. Today I will hike, climb, admire, and battle. Today I will fall in love all over again!
In my heart I know that there is something there for us today. Chris and I. The Lord and Us. Today there will be snow, and i can tell you now that there is nothing more amazing that fresh snow on a hand painted backdrop of beauty. there are only so many words i can use to describe an experience like this, and that is what limits me. Therefore i leave it at that.
Quote of the day: "ive been here before...it wasn't a dream, was it."
-Just like heaven
love ilene
Saturday, December 20, 2008
Friday, December 19, 2008
age VS list
A.K.A. MY CHRISTMAS LIST!!
At my age, a christmas list may sound ridiculous. i know. But i have been inspired...
therefore here it is, with a TWIST!
My 2008: Christmas Go List and Christmas No List:
Christmas Go List:
#1. Gift Card to Forever 21
#2. Flats (flat shoes: black, silver, gray, solid colors, etc.)
#3. Make up/Hair salon GC
#4. Leopard print purse
#5. HP Printer
#6. Books about how to plan a wedding'
#7. Wedding planner or portfolio for all my wedding planning information.
#8. Perfume: Michael Kors, Chanel Chance, scents like those.
#9. A Box. (i collect really pretty, amazing, or unique boxes.)
#10. Clothes. ie. blouses, shirts, sweaters, long sleeves, scarfs, abercrombie knit sweater etc./Gift cards for such items.
Christmas No List:
#1. Socks
#2. Pj's
#3. Black boots. VERY IMPORTANT NOTE:(i think everyone thinks i want black boots like the ones i had, but i dont. the ones i had were short and i would really enjoy tall ones....however im extremely picky with boots so it would be close to impossible for an outsider to pick a pair which tickles my fancy.)
#4. Arts and Craft type items
#5. Costume jewelry (except rhinestone type items)
#6. Candy or food items (see's candies is always acceptable)
#7. itunes anything.
#8. Novelty tees
#9. Itchy clothes
#10. LITTLE MERMAID ITEMS
SHORT AND SWEET, RIGHT? i would like to add something that is very important to me. Aside from the fact that it has probably been over 10 years since i made a christmas list....i havent really felt the need to make one which is due to the simple fact that: God has always provided me with everything ive ever needed. He has taken care of me and i am very blessed. This Chirstmas coming up next week, is already so special to me because i have a fiance who loves me and takes care of me with a true and genuine love. My family loves me. I am thankful.
But i love making list and so this blog in particular is fun, yet true and very accurate regarding my likes and dislikes!!
Quote of the day: "..uh, conversation between the taco and the burrito..NACHO!"
-Massie Block, The Clique
love ilene
At my age, a christmas list may sound ridiculous. i know. But i have been inspired...
therefore here it is, with a TWIST!
My 2008: Christmas Go List and Christmas No List:
Christmas Go List:
#1. Gift Card to Forever 21
#2. Flats (flat shoes: black, silver, gray, solid colors, etc.)
#3. Make up/Hair salon GC
#4. Leopard print purse
#5. HP Printer
#6. Books about how to plan a wedding'
#7. Wedding planner or portfolio for all my wedding planning information.
#8. Perfume: Michael Kors, Chanel Chance, scents like those.
#9. A Box. (i collect really pretty, amazing, or unique boxes.)
#10. Clothes. ie. blouses, shirts, sweaters, long sleeves, scarfs, abercrombie knit sweater etc./Gift cards for such items.
Christmas No List:
#1. Socks
#2. Pj's
#3. Black boots. VERY IMPORTANT NOTE:(i think everyone thinks i want black boots like the ones i had, but i dont. the ones i had were short and i would really enjoy tall ones....however im extremely picky with boots so it would be close to impossible for an outsider to pick a pair which tickles my fancy.)
#4. Arts and Craft type items
#5. Costume jewelry (except rhinestone type items)
#6. Candy or food items (see's candies is always acceptable)
#7. itunes anything.
#8. Novelty tees
#9. Itchy clothes
#10. LITTLE MERMAID ITEMS
SHORT AND SWEET, RIGHT? i would like to add something that is very important to me. Aside from the fact that it has probably been over 10 years since i made a christmas list....i havent really felt the need to make one which is due to the simple fact that: God has always provided me with everything ive ever needed. He has taken care of me and i am very blessed. This Chirstmas coming up next week, is already so special to me because i have a fiance who loves me and takes care of me with a true and genuine love. My family loves me. I am thankful.
But i love making list and so this blog in particular is fun, yet true and very accurate regarding my likes and dislikes!!
Quote of the day: "..uh, conversation between the taco and the burrito..NACHO!"
-Massie Block, The Clique
love ilene
may I be pardoned...?
I cant believe that i've waited this long to write...im pained with jolts of regret and sadness. I love writing, but have acted otherwise..
well there's nothing i can do about it now. therefore i will result to my secondary...which is making list. i will recap my last 9months in a neat and summed up list of events and feelings.
since my last post was in march..i will continue from the month of march:
1. me and chris realized that one day we would marry.
2. i decided to go to africa with a small team of ppl from my church.
3. my 23 birthday
4. my surprise party...EVERYONE came except for a couple ppl who are not only proven to be pathetic, but are just sadly Lam-o...CAPITAL "L". honestly glad cause didnt want them there anyways but found out that they were invited by my mom (the one throwing the surprise party) go figure.stared fund raising with my church for funds that would be used to purchase abundant resources to be given to children and elderly in africa.
5. leave for london
6. mission trip in africa. most amazing experience ever. i'd rather call it a benchmark, rather than a lifetime experience.
7. chris and i return from africa.
8. return to work in september.
9. lots of problems occur at work concerning new middle school principal and staff. district pulls cover up on 2 children assigned to me who were, sadly, not receiving appropriate one-on-one assistance.
10. sadly, once again, im pulled into a mtg with this horrible principal to talk about my 9 month evaluation...which conveniently was on a friday and happened to be 3 weeks early. the contents of this evaluation, i will not enclose in this blog....but to give minimal insight, it stated untrue defects in my work performance which was 100% inconsistent with my 2 previous evaluations done by our former principal who recently retired months before. sad story, not for me. but for the students now under this inadequate authority and direction.
11. church pulls off most excellent maze ever. we prepped for weeks and the big debut was on oct 31st!
12. thanksgiving
13. day after thanksgiving, chris takes me, keely, and taulia to mt baldy for the day.
14. later that day...chris proposes to me...i say yes!
15. im ENGAGED!! and preparing to marry the most incredible man ever. he is absolutely, the perfect man for me. i will always love him.
16. very fun: announcing our engagement to everyone.
17. we buy scene it: seinfeld edition
18. art and chris' big bday party bash!
19. im still looking for a job. i go on most fantastic interview ever with a preschool opening up on our church property.
20. i get a call back, not very clear in direction, but in which it is stated: "we are still deciding where you will be placed"...which to me and my family sounds as if i got the job :)
21. chris takes me christmas shopping and we buy presents for our family.
22. chirs buys me the most beautiful red coat to wear this sunday @ church. our childrens choir is performing and i want to look festive while i lead them.(END OF LIST)
Thats a quick sweep through. obviously i have left much out. and i also realize that only what is most important to me (@this moment) made it onto the list at this time. but i need to move on to more current matters...
VERY IMPORTANT: even though what i am about to write has been omitted from my list of events and feelings... i would like to add that i have been following the Caylee Anthony case from day one! im very passionate about this case and my heart aches for the people involved. I do believe that casey killed her daughter caylee and i am sure that this truth will be brought out in future findings and trial. I believe that caylee is now in heaven and no longer in any confusion or pain. Even though i wish none of this would have ever happened, i thank God that she is out of harms way now, and in the safest of all. i pray for her family and for the truth to be brought out..only to continue my faith in our higher authorities and judicial system. Time will tell!...
I will now close, but re-open with an additional holiday blog! (enclosed with personal christmas list!)
Quote of the day: "...what ever happened to the separation of classes...i would like my peanuts on a silver platter..."
-King Julian, Madagascar 2
love ilene
well there's nothing i can do about it now. therefore i will result to my secondary...which is making list. i will recap my last 9months in a neat and summed up list of events and feelings.
since my last post was in march..i will continue from the month of march:
1. me and chris realized that one day we would marry.
2. i decided to go to africa with a small team of ppl from my church.
3. my 23 birthday
4. my surprise party...EVERYONE came except for a couple ppl who are not only proven to be pathetic, but are just sadly Lam-o...CAPITAL "L". honestly glad cause didnt want them there anyways but found out that they were invited by my mom (the one throwing the surprise party) go figure.stared fund raising with my church for funds that would be used to purchase abundant resources to be given to children and elderly in africa.
5. leave for london
6. mission trip in africa. most amazing experience ever. i'd rather call it a benchmark, rather than a lifetime experience.
7. chris and i return from africa.
8. return to work in september.
9. lots of problems occur at work concerning new middle school principal and staff. district pulls cover up on 2 children assigned to me who were, sadly, not receiving appropriate one-on-one assistance.
10. sadly, once again, im pulled into a mtg with this horrible principal to talk about my 9 month evaluation...which conveniently was on a friday and happened to be 3 weeks early. the contents of this evaluation, i will not enclose in this blog....but to give minimal insight, it stated untrue defects in my work performance which was 100% inconsistent with my 2 previous evaluations done by our former principal who recently retired months before. sad story, not for me. but for the students now under this inadequate authority and direction.
11. church pulls off most excellent maze ever. we prepped for weeks and the big debut was on oct 31st!
12. thanksgiving
13. day after thanksgiving, chris takes me, keely, and taulia to mt baldy for the day.
14. later that day...chris proposes to me...i say yes!
15. im ENGAGED!! and preparing to marry the most incredible man ever. he is absolutely, the perfect man for me. i will always love him.16. very fun: announcing our engagement to everyone.
17. we buy scene it: seinfeld edition
18. art and chris' big bday party bash!
19. im still looking for a job. i go on most fantastic interview ever with a preschool opening up on our church property.
20. i get a call back, not very clear in direction, but in which it is stated: "we are still deciding where you will be placed"...which to me and my family sounds as if i got the job :)
21. chris takes me christmas shopping and we buy presents for our family.
22. chirs buys me the most beautiful red coat to wear this sunday @ church. our childrens choir is performing and i want to look festive while i lead them.(END OF LIST)
Thats a quick sweep through. obviously i have left much out. and i also realize that only what is most important to me (@this moment) made it onto the list at this time. but i need to move on to more current matters...
VERY IMPORTANT: even though what i am about to write has been omitted from my list of events and feelings... i would like to add that i have been following the Caylee Anthony case from day one! im very passionate about this case and my heart aches for the people involved. I do believe that casey killed her daughter caylee and i am sure that this truth will be brought out in future findings and trial. I believe that caylee is now in heaven and no longer in any confusion or pain. Even though i wish none of this would have ever happened, i thank God that she is out of harms way now, and in the safest of all. i pray for her family and for the truth to be brought out..only to continue my faith in our higher authorities and judicial system. Time will tell!...
I will now close, but re-open with an additional holiday blog! (enclosed with personal christmas list!)
Quote of the day: "...what ever happened to the separation of classes...i would like my peanuts on a silver platter..."
-King Julian, Madagascar 2
love ilene
Monday, March 3, 2008
my subtle comeback
its been a while. since then until now my life has become a twist and turn of its previous image i so thoughtfully expressed. same age. different attitude. different life. if life was a purse..ive added a couple more, heavy, yet valuable items to the bag. valuable and in my opinion, necessary. the someone special has now become my special love. my duties and ministry are now closer to my heart and lifestyle than ever before. i will explain a little later, however its important that i communicate the battle i war through day in and day out. now, and only now am i in a position to take a step and fight rather than just be a part of the army or team. the battle between my inside and outside. like a snake ready to shed its old skin only to reveal a deeper more mature and developed part of its anatomy, i risk my outer layer at that cost of my insides. revealing that deeper and hopefully more developed part of my anatomy. my heart. what is it made of and what does it hold. GOD. LOVE. POWER. to what extent? i hear my captain yelling back at me to pick up my sword. no more watching. its time to care, and its time to fight. with more to carry, lets see how these valuable items of yours...add to your life. can you stand the weight. can "I" stand the weight. time will be the answer. perseverance will be the trick. HIS VOICE will be the source. i hear HIS voice and can feel the clock. in a battle like this..LORD LET THIS BE THE TIME...AND LET MY CLOCK BE ON BEAT WITH YOURS.
amen
amen
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